I went to yoga today. It was good – its normally always good, in a just-what-I-needed kind of way. I had a thought as we were getting into final resting post – savasana, or corpse pose.
I thought, fuck! I’m here, all alone. A very mild sensation of panic entered my body. Very mild, in a ‘hmmm, this is cool’ kind of way. I have no relatives in Canada. I am between jobs. I am moving to a new place, alone. I haven’t had this kind of freedom and independence since I was 17.
I talked with a close friend earlier this evening. She reminded me, I’m not alone. I have friends and acquaintances. There are people in the world who love and care for me, even if they are in another country or half a world away. In fact, I met with another good friend for a beer and a bite tonight. It was nice. Just chill.
So I think I can relate, just a bit to what Bowie was saying in Space Oddity. That feeling of being alone. What if the capsule fails? What if I can’t make it back to earth?
So now it gets interesting. I bought myself a back pack, an inflatable air mattress for hike in camping and a water purifying pump today. I have a small tent and a sleeping bag already. I plan to explore some trails – alone if I have to. Camping out in the wild trails of Eastern Canada.
I’ve done a reasonable amount of trail hikes, and camping, but I’ve never done the hike in camping thing, and I’ve been itching to do it for a long time.
I read a lot, and I’ve read a lot of inspiring stories about people who travel, and hike and camp and do epic things. It’s time for me to explore some of these kind of adventures. Don’t worry, I’ll be capturing this in my blog, so you will be along for the journey too!
It won’t be quite the space oddity, but I’m willing to try something new and fun and this could turn out to be one of those things that takes me far and wide!