I got down to the gym yesterday. It was a good workout. Something about Fridays that just gets me in the mood to workout. All the bullshit of the week has gone by and you get two days to work out and recover. Bliss!
Yesterday was biceps blasting day. The day before that was chest day.
So I’m at a bit of a cross roads. I might be more mobile than I’ve been for a long time – with the ex and kids moving away in about 30 days. Lots of things to consider. Options, I guess. I finished Neil Young’s book. I’ll probably do a book review on that this weekend.
I’m going to do hot yoga this morning. Kind of looking forward to it. I’ve been away from yoga for a little while, except for last Saturday. Not sure why exactly, I get busy at times and sometimes re-prioritise but essentially it has to do with any gym time I get I tend to want to do weights.
Hi Bloggers, as you might know, I’ve been reading Neil Young’s autobiography. Comes a Time has always been a favourite of mine. I don’t know what it is exactly, it has a nice mix of sincerity, nostalgia and reflection. A kind of honesty.
There comes a time for all of us. My ex – the T Bird came to tell me they will be here for only another 37 days. I’m trying my hardest to be present as a dad to my kids. A lot of damage has been done. A lot of animosity has developed based on the situation between their mum and I.
I’ve spent the last year or so in a sort of holding pattern, knowing that the situation has been destined to be not-sustainable, and having many uncertainties in my life – work, domestic and external. Stuck yet unable to move due to financial constraints, or obligations etc.
I’ve spent a lot of that time looking inward. An examination of myself, if you will. I think this is healthy, to a point. Too much introspection can lead to self doubt and hesitation. I’ve put aside some passions. Making music, song writing, etc. All the while, just hanging on to a thread of whatever it is that keeps us going.
I want to be clear about one thing – I am not complaining, I am not bitter. The journey has been extremely challenging on many levels. At the same time, I have come through this still feeling for the most part like I am being true to myself. I’ve made changes. I’ve learned from some mistakes.
So I went to gym today. I am doing my light workout – generally more reps and less weight. I did over head press, power cleans, lunges, hi step ups, and chainsaws.
Hi Bloggers, I did get down to the gym tonight. I did my Workout A – legs and biceps. It’s one of my favourite workouts. But I know I would be boring you to rant on about all that crap.
Having some downtime this weekend, I indulged in a couple of fascinating and interesting doco’s on Nflix. A few actually. I recommend them all.
Mitre Peninsula – a Spanish language (subtitled) doco about a group of 4 guys that hike into Argentina’s wilderness to surf remote waves. Just a joy to watch.
The Last Shaman. Ok this one is just really really well done. The story of an American young man who has been battling depression for a long time. He was suicidal. He took off to Peru in search of shaman rituals and spiritual salvation. He goes into the Amazon jungle and finds some people, and hallucinogenics, to aid his journey. It’s really interesting and really uplifting, and I recommend that anyone watches it.
DMT: The Spirit Molecule. Ok, this one is fascinating, and it kind of ties in with the Last Shaman. Seems that the chemical that comes from a combination of two plants was studied at the University of NM back in the 90’s or so. It talks about peoples profound experiences in a hospital setting. People apparently literally check out of their bodies and enter a kind of cosmic universe realm. Absolutely fascinating. They suggest that the experience is like taking all the filters off our senses for some time and experiencing a kind of devine existence – free from time, free from material connection to the world, free in space and experiencing beings or entities that kind of exchange information or whatever. I know that sounds way out there. Just watch the program, please!
Hi Bloggers, It’s Sunday. A day to catch up, a day to sleep in. I cooked eggs this morning with toast. I was half-heartedly talking myself into going to the gym. I think I’ll do that a bit later. Took some bags of leaf litter and garden trash to the dump. Made a milkshake with full cream milk and ice cream. mmmm.
So we are into fall now. Today as we were heading to the dump there were snow flakes flying. The ground is still too warm for the snow to stick and the flurries were so light I don’t think we are going to see much on the ground.
Yesterday I went for a bike ride. It was pretty cool, or so I thought when I left the house. I put two layers of long black tights on, a wife-beater tank and a long sleeve tee shirt under a hoodie. As I got riding at some point I realised that I might be a little over dressed so I took off one pair of the long tights and the long sleeve shirt under my hoodie. After that it was just right.
I stopped by at one of my favourite cafe’s. I got this French breakfast donut that was absolutely awesome. I was feeling kind of hungry on my ride and in the need for a sugar hit and that donut really hit the spot! There was a crowd of mixed types there on this Saturday afternoon. Some students with laptops and text books, hipsters in beanies and beards, and regular family types out to meet for a coffee. People were chatting and the espresso machine was doing is whhhooooossshsshhshhshsh sounds.
I’ve been working out too. I’ve done a few workouts this week. I’ve done two rotations of my workouts A-F in ‘heavy mode’. So now for one rotation I will be back to light mode/lots of reps. The work out is different. You get a lot more burn. In some ways its easier because you don’t get so physically taxed from doing heavy sets and max effort but it can still be intense as you are repping your muscles to exhaustion in each set.
So what was in yesterday’s workout? Workout F Power clean to overhead press squats, wide grip chin ups, combo dumbbell lat raises with overhead press, bent over rows, push ups with feet on bench, cable cross overs. It was a good work out!
Tuesday morning, I was up with the sparrows to get an early work out in before work. I had the alarm set for 4.30 am and for a nice change I actually felt like getting up and working out, as I didn’t plan to make it in extra early to work – just regular early.
I feel like I am clearing some blockages. The recent past has been so littered with challenges and constraints of sorts, I feel like I am starting to see or realise the way forward. It has not been clear, for a long time, and there is still much uncertainty, but overall right now I have a sense of optimism. A sense of relief, and a sense of relative freedom.
I’ve had some good critical conversations with some key people in my life. I have had to ask for understanding, for support and to refrain from judgement, as much as possible, anyway.
Ahhhh. Deep breath.
So I did my work out C today, it was all about the biceps, triceps and abdominals. Not too heavy, not too light. A good work out.
Hey Bloggers. Sunday. Ahhh. Had a short-ish sleep in. Hopped up, mess around a bit and headed down for a workout. As I entered my usual gym this morning I noticed the Halloween display on the entrance area. Spooky spider webs and yellow caution tape. As I was leaving I noticed some scary ghosts (the ghosts of my past??? yikes!). I’m pretty sure they were plastic sheets with balloons inflated in them and hung up with string. Close one!
So my gym experience this morning? Pretty good I would say. No really urgent things to do, apart from clean up the house a bit.
There was the usual assortment of regulars there – the fit couple that always work out together. He wears his hat on backwards and lifts pretty full on. He’s a grunter, and that’s ok! His GF is fit looking. They are always seen together which is nice.
I ran into one of the regulars when putting my bag in the locker. I said Hi, what are you working out etc? He was on leg day. I told him I was doing chest and shoulders. There were some other regulars in there, and some I hadn’t seen before. It was generally pretty quiet which I like.
The TV’s were off. Normally they are showing business news network or Sportsnet. Today they just had that little speaker icon that floats around the screen. I settled in for my workout. I was feeling somewhat inspired by watching part of Generation Iron on Netflix.
My first exercise was dumbbell bench press. I did 10 reps with 80 lbs then went to 5 sets of 5 for 100 lbs. After that it was incline dumbbell press, 5 x 5 at 70 lbs. Then I did lat raises, 3 x 10 at 30 lbs, and bent over lat raises, 3 x 10 at 20 lbs. Finished off with lying leg raises. sets of 20, 15, 10.
It was a good workout. Got it done easy enough. Some days you feel strong and able and some days the weights are heavier. It’s just the way it goes.
I retreated upstairs to the yoga room. I settled in for some meditation. It was fairly superficial, truth be told. I’d like to say it was deep and spiritual. I sat on a cushion and took about 10 mins to just settle. I was really feeling ok, and reflected on how for many times in the past 2 years, the meditation has been a rock that I have clung to – almost as if, in a personal crisis, or series of crises, it was all I had to stay sane. On this occasion, I was just feeling generally pretty good, and that’s ok!
We’ve been getting ready to put the house on the market – all part of the plan to go separate ways. So I’m at a crossroads of sorts. Not too concerned about the future, maybe a little apprehensive but also kind of excited too. The last month or so has been about fixing up houses and other loose ends to prepare for the next chapter in life.
Had a little misadventure with dishwashers. We’ve had one in the house since we bought the place, but it hasn’t worked worth a shit since some time soon after we moved in. It just stopped cleaning dishes. It ran, it made dishwasher noises, but every time you’d open the door the food was still stuck to the plates etc.
So I thought, lets buy a cheapo off Kijiji (on line classifieds) and stick that in there and then we can sell the place with a working dishwasher. We found one and drove out to have a look. Forked out $140 for the used dishwasher. Got it in today. Guess what? The bastard leaks! Ok. Pull it out again, see if there is something obvious. Of course its all this plastic moulded crap with wires coming out of it so there is no hope of fixing this thing.
We reluctantly decided to go down to the hardware store and buy a new one. There were a couple of models for $400. Of course they don’t stock them and have to wait a week. Ok, which ones do they stock? One for $650, and one really high end one. So we had to make an executive decision. We bought it.
Got the new shiny one home and glad to say everything seems to work ok so far. Just another little adventure in spending time and money to get ready to sell this house. Such is life, eh?
Ok, enough bullshit, here’s my work out, and I lost my print out of my work outs so I was going from memory!
Squats – set of 10 to warm up, then 5 sets, 5 reps.
Ezy bar curls, 3 sets of 10 reps.
Alternating dumbbell bicep curls. 3 sets of 20.
Cable tricep pull downs, 3 sets of 10.
Crunches, elbows to knees. sets of 50, 26, 26.
Calf raises. 3 sets of 10.
The other night I got a work out after work too. In this one I did:
I got this quote from a work colleague the other day. I was so impressed by this simple statement that I wrote it on a sticky note and taped it to a wall in my office.
When you think about it, its true. When we are comfortable, when we are not challenged, the ride can be easy and even boring, but its not until we get out of the comfort zone that we really grow as individuals.
So I got up early this morning for a workout. Here’s what I did, It’s my workout C – biceps and triceps.
Bicep curls on preacher rest – 3 sets of 10 reps each, incline bicep curls – 3 sets of 10 reps, tricep extensions on bench – 3 sets of 10 reps, tricep cable pull downs, 3 sets of 10 reps, lying leg raises, 3 sets of 20, 15, 10.
Early starts at work have my alarm going off at 4.50 am so I can be driving to work at 5.30 for a 6 am start. More than a couple of these early starts has me needing to catch up on sleep in the early evenings, so sometimes I find myself in a pattern of coming home, crashing for an hour or three, and getting up for a bit, eating or working out and going back to bed to do it all over again.
I’m feeling generally more balanced these days. Work is going fairly well all things considered. The home life is relatively stable. Separation on track. Gym and exercise are important no matter what your life circumstances so I am quite consistent in my work out routine. Sometimes you get tired, sometimes your muscles need a break too.
I started reading Neil Young’s ‘Waging Heavy Peace’. Its a good read so far. He had a lot of challenges health wise, and his son has a disability. His parents separated when he was young. What’s interesting about that is, despite hardships, he has come out as one of the most influential musicians of his generation. I think that sets a really good example.
Hugs, peace, Namaste.
Here is my work out that I did tonight:
Dumbbell bench press – 1 set 10 reps 80 lbs, then 5 sets of 5 at 100 lb dumbbells.
Shoulder lat raises 10, 8, 8, using 40 lb dumbbells.
Hi bloggers. Since coming back from my road trip I have had the week at work to settle back into a routine. Extra early starts in the morning, and other issues sometimes take my energy that I would like to put into a workout, but I did get a few sessions in..
Last night I went to gym before taking No. 1. Son to the movies – we saw The Hitman’s Bodyguard in case you were wondering. It was a fun brainless kind of movie experience.
So the work out I did last night was this: I’m in my lower weight/higher rep cycle of 6 work outs (A-F). This one is work out E – mix up. I will say that lowering your weight and increasing your reps is a good way to give yourself a break from lifting heavy, and it totally punishes your muscles and I have found that ‘the ache’ can hang around for a few days on some muscle groups. This week my calves and my abs have felt the burn long after the final set was done…. that’s a good sign!